Asmaradana....

A new year....new peoples....the same dance??? well it won't be the SAME dance actually....anyway here's how the story goes

Last week Ain asked me wether I would like to take part in the peformance for the Ambassador meeting...I asked what dance...she said it will be Asmaradana..the one we did last year for Depa-Raya...I said wellll, why not....but not all the original cast will be joining us....The first rehearsel was done in K.Dayah's room....those who will dance is me, Ain, Lyn, Shira, Bibi and Ain (Amir's lil sister)..anyway bothe the new comer was great and catch up the dance move very fast...as for me..there were some blunder as I got a bit (Alright...a LOT) rusty since there wern't much dancing or exercise..hehehehe..but it was really fun....

I think we rehearse for 4 hours....and then that night...I reformat my laptop...finally!!!....and now I'm trying to install codecs and utilities inside..the problem keep coming from WinMediaPlayer...it say's that there is a audio codec that is not install..will try and fix it later tonight...but I'm so dogone tired now....I woke too early for Sunday morning (well for my standard anyway since I slept at 6am) for practise session....Ain and Lyn was late..overslept...sigh...bestnye....and then we practise for almost 6 hours...I'm so tired and my body ache...I can't lift my bicep muscle(hahahaha...konon terror anat)....and then I had an urge to do a spring cleaning...so I vacumed the room and reorganize my things....but everything work out OK I guess...

brighter note

Got rid of my moodiness...finally....today was great....had a test for Physio...I think I got 4..if she just took the computer test result..if it include my written maybe a 3 or a 5....you can never know with that teacher of mine....and today Psycho lecture was "interesting"...the topic???personality...and we visited our good doctor Segmuind Freud....As ussual his theory on developing personality is quite intresting..and as ussual will always be conected somehow with the sexual feeling of the person.....Here is some of his point of view

a) he said that most people have the Oedius complex when growing up....this complex is characterise when a child have a strong feeling for their opposite gender parent...and think that their same sex parent is a rival.....

b) all of goes thru 5 stages of pleasure that dictate how our personality will developt...the 5 stages are (1) oral stages, (2) Anal stages, (3) Phallic stages, (4) Latent period and (5) Genital stages.....

You can see how today lecture had been very intresting...the guys who weren't mature enough keep up laughing over their own joke (which I wouldn't even want to know) and the teacher had to stop speaking for a few minutes...can you beleive that some of this guys are more than 20 years old....urgh!!!!see how immature guys are????

after finishing lecture went out to buy some grocery and to look at some DVDs....the new DVD place was empty..then went to Dombita...the DVD atore there also seem empty....Kak Hir got an idea saying that tha authorities had raided the place....HAH!! as if....anyway went to my ussual 'prokat' place to see if there's any good one..there are...The Brother Grimm and The Blood of the Templars....but both don't have english....the Blood of the Templars some more is in Germany...guess I just watch and try out my Russian...ahaks....

challenge

A friend told me that my life here in Kursk is challenging...but then I thought...is it only because that I'm in Kursk that all this thing happen to me???is it possible that these things won't happen if I weren't here....maybe some of the things won't happen if I was somewhere else...maybe I won't get to experience the dark side of some human beings...and maybe I won't feel al these feelings now....

the dark side of human beings had always facinated me.....I always wonder why do some ppl take their own life or risk hurting others when they now that they are going to be punish because of that action.....futhermore how can you leave your love ones behind so that you can escape what you think is an unlivable life....is that what suicider think when they took that action...were they really feel that they live was worthless...that they feel useless, unloved, unwanted.....just a dust that everyone steped on and didn't care....but won't people notice this dust if the wind blew it to your face....and wouldn't you notice it when you accidentally inhale it....sure it is notice with anoyance..but atleast people notice it....

and then there were people who couldnt live if the world is not focus on them....EXCUSE ME!!! but the world does not center around you.....plz stop being foolish and try to get your act together....people aren't meant to be by peoples side for a long time....when the time came you will just drift away....and then what do you do???

why do ppl tend to look at me like I'm some idiot...is it the way I projected myself....well so much for trying to see the positive things around me.....I have ran out of positive thinking..so just let me wallow on self-pitty and negative thought...JUST LET ME BE!!!!!

a white day....

Didn't went to class the whole day today...tought of going to Russian but since it's going to be a new theme and I'm going to 'razkaz' the theme next week...I thought why not.....guess why I didn't go to class...all because of "Kim Sam Soon"....it's a Korean drama series that Nina burned for me...It took a while for me and Farhana to look at it since it needs 2 codecs to run it....anyway last night we watched the 1st episode...it was hilarious....so I asked Farhana to put on the 2nd one....and I can't stop watching it...I wanna watch the whole series that night..I mean I was so worked up because of the story I want to get it over with ASAP.....It's a story of some foul-mouth oldie (is 30 years old really that old???) that just got dump n started working in a new restaurant who is ran by the son of a hotel tycoon (a female president [women power all the way]) this guy can be called as an ice prince ( he can do this great sneer that can make Draco Malfoy proud, which make me want to kiss him) and yeah his a total jerk...which make him hotter (Farhana said I'm psycho cause I like guys that are jerks and go nuts) but he has a great soft side that he is trying to hide from the whole world (which make him look of so vulnerable and of so cute)...I want to see the whole series but the damn laptop doesn't have the necessary codec....so I end up finishing Engine...a Japanese series that star Takuya Kimura about a race car drive that got to do with his Dad's orphanage.....at last I finished it and didn't went to class the whole day...hehehehehe

When I woke up it was to the sound of Farhana getting back from class...and asked me to watch Kim Sam Soon the 3rd episode....so went to wash up and watch it with her...it was so funny....then Kak Hir asked me to go out to buy some groceries for tonight dinner (Nasi Lemak Ayam will be the menu) I asked her about the weather outside she said it was snowing I tought she was joking...when I looked outside it was white everywhere...hah...the first heavy downfall of snow this year...I've been waiting it to snow for awhile now.....I didn't tought it was snowing heavily....hah!!!serve me right....didn't were ant hood so my face was covered with snow.....