Saturday, May 14, 2005
Storage
A lot had happen..I acctualy have to do a lot of blogging..especialy about he 9th of May...But then I was ung up on it cause I can't connect to my Net line anymore...jus becoz a RAT had sabotage my laptop...so I'm writing from Dayah's comp...It is so stupid...Tell you guys later..
Thursday, May 12, 2005
In loving memory
Its raining outside just like it is raining in my heart...te most beloved peopleon earth whom I love just passed away...My grandmother...Nenek...you don't know how much I miss you...I didn't get to see your face for the last time...I'm sorry for everything that I've done wrong to you...I'm sorry if I could have never been the greatest grandchildren for you...I'm sorry for everything...Your the greatest thing that have ever happen to me...I'm sorry if I had ever hurt you...trully I didn't mean to...I will truly miss you...you are the sunlight of my life..you had brought me..you were the one who pampered me...I will always miss the way you laugh..the way you really care for me..how you won't let me do any work ause you don't want me to be tired...how you always cooked my favourite food everytime I went to Kampung...I will miss all the advice you had give me...the love you geve me was precious and there is nothing in the world that can surpass it...
How can I live without ever seing your smiling face again...or your sweet angelic voice...and your touches and hugs..how could I live here when I know that when I get back to Malaysia you won't be there to greet me...and you wouldn't get the chance to see me as a Doctor...how can I live when you woouldn't be there to pujuk Ayah when Ayah will get mad at me...how will I live when you are not there....Who would I cium tapak tangan during raya....who will I for forgiveness during raya...who will comfort me when everything go wrong...who will be my listening companion when we talked about my aunts and uncle...and there's no more kampung for me...without you there there is nothing...who will ever comfort me when I feel bad...
I feel guilty cause I couldn't be by your side when you took your final breathe...I knew that you had called for me when you were critical...I did called to asked about you...but Umi was at home at that time...and futher more...they won't let Hp to be brought into CCU...I'm sorry...I should've called...Umi said you were getting better....I don't know what went wrong...and I'll probably wouldn't know for a long time...I was really hard broken....I don't know what to say...the most beloved person in my entire life was taken from me without me having a chance to say goodbye or to say how much I love her...I had never thought that you will be gone when I'm still here trying to fininsh medical school...it is so ironic...I don't know what to say....
Nenek...plz know this...I will always miss you..you will always be in my heart and in my prayer...you were the one who brought me up when I was little...you were the one who had the patience to layan me...to you i was the apple of your eyes...and I still am...you were the one who feed me...you were the one who nutured me...you were the one who was worried when I was sick....you were the one who took care of me...you sacrifice alot for me...and I hadn't had the chance to pay you back for everything that you had done for me....
I don't know who will layan me after this...who will back me up everytime Atuk get angry with me when I wake up late...who will cooked for me pucuk manis masak santan...who will do all the kuih from Kampung just because I said I missed eating them when I was in asrama...who will cooked my sambil tumis anymore....only your sambal was the best in the world...who will masak cucur udang and nasi goreng kampung for me when I go back to kampung....all my favourite food was your cooking....I wouldn't get a taste for it anymore...there is so much more that I will miss from you...your laughter..the way you talked..all those small,itsy bitsy stuff that you just will miss....you really knew me...
I was praying that you would hold on till I get back...but alas.. Allah love you more...and I just prayed that you will be in Heaven with the good muslim...and may you be near to Allah there....I will always pray for you...and I know now that you are with our Creator,the Almighty, may your soul be blessed...cause trully you are the nicest person I had ever encounter...Mpga Allah mencucurkan rahmat kepada Nenek..Al-Fatihah...
How can I live without ever seing your smiling face again...or your sweet angelic voice...and your touches and hugs..how could I live here when I know that when I get back to Malaysia you won't be there to greet me...and you wouldn't get the chance to see me as a Doctor...how can I live when you woouldn't be there to pujuk Ayah when Ayah will get mad at me...how will I live when you are not there....Who would I cium tapak tangan during raya....who will I for forgiveness during raya...who will comfort me when everything go wrong...who will be my listening companion when we talked about my aunts and uncle...and there's no more kampung for me...without you there there is nothing...who will ever comfort me when I feel bad...
I feel guilty cause I couldn't be by your side when you took your final breathe...I knew that you had called for me when you were critical...I did called to asked about you...but Umi was at home at that time...and futher more...they won't let Hp to be brought into CCU...I'm sorry...I should've called...Umi said you were getting better....I don't know what went wrong...and I'll probably wouldn't know for a long time...I was really hard broken....I don't know what to say...the most beloved person in my entire life was taken from me without me having a chance to say goodbye or to say how much I love her...I had never thought that you will be gone when I'm still here trying to fininsh medical school...it is so ironic...I don't know what to say....
Nenek...plz know this...I will always miss you..you will always be in my heart and in my prayer...you were the one who brought me up when I was little...you were the one who had the patience to layan me...to you i was the apple of your eyes...and I still am...you were the one who feed me...you were the one who nutured me...you were the one who was worried when I was sick....you were the one who took care of me...you sacrifice alot for me...and I hadn't had the chance to pay you back for everything that you had done for me....
I don't know who will layan me after this...who will back me up everytime Atuk get angry with me when I wake up late...who will cooked for me pucuk manis masak santan...who will do all the kuih from Kampung just because I said I missed eating them when I was in asrama...who will cooked my sambil tumis anymore....only your sambal was the best in the world...who will masak cucur udang and nasi goreng kampung for me when I go back to kampung....all my favourite food was your cooking....I wouldn't get a taste for it anymore...there is so much more that I will miss from you...your laughter..the way you talked..all those small,itsy bitsy stuff that you just will miss....you really knew me...
I was praying that you would hold on till I get back...but alas.. Allah love you more...and I just prayed that you will be in Heaven with the good muslim...and may you be near to Allah there....I will always pray for you...and I know now that you are with our Creator,the Almighty, may your soul be blessed...cause trully you are the nicest person I had ever encounter...Mpga Allah mencucurkan rahmat kepada Nenek..Al-Fatihah...
Friday, May 06, 2005
Psychopath???
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Low |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Moderate |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Low |
| Histrionic: | Moderate |
| Narcissistic: | Low |
| Avoidant: | Low |
| Dependent: | Moderate |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | Low |
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information -- | |
I know someone whose not gonna like me so much after this...hahaha...but who cares...atleast I'm being true to myself
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Photoshop~~~
Don't you just hated when someone uses this new technologies to piss you off...eventhought you haven't done anything wrong to them????I mean what the hell were you thinking???Did I do something to you...I don't think so...How sure am I???ask around...I don't have time to play with the bloody c**ks**ker...I rather spend my time studying thank you very much...why am I so UPSET??? here's the story...
I just knew that there's this one JERK that have taken my picture with my friend...meddle with it and posted it on our network setting...I mean how lame was that...He didn't do any of those porn stuff...but it was still humiliating cause I was associated with this girl who was "infamous"...not my cup of tea....
Now tell me I shouldn't be PISSED OFF...haha...I remember the messenger's (the guy who told me what happen) face when I reacted..he couldn't get out of Tasha's room fast enough...I think he knew what the term "killing the messenger" really mean...I was so angry...Trully I didn't do anything to that JERK...come on..why should I spend my precious time on such a LOW LIFE....I know I can't put all what I say in my heart in here (u never know if there's children around..hehe..)..but...uhhh...do I wanna kill that mutha fucka...opppss...
But 1 thing that is good 'bout this was that all of my friends back me up....they knew that the CRAZY, MUTHA FUCKA, S.O.B was psycho..I mean he'll do anything just to piss people off...and more ever I have friends...and YOU, JERK don't!!!!..
~~~~~nuff said~~~~~~~~
I just knew that there's this one JERK that have taken my picture with my friend...meddle with it and posted it on our network setting...I mean how lame was that...He didn't do any of those porn stuff...but it was still humiliating cause I was associated with this girl who was "infamous"...not my cup of tea....
Now tell me I shouldn't be PISSED OFF...haha...I remember the messenger's (the guy who told me what happen) face when I reacted..he couldn't get out of Tasha's room fast enough...I think he knew what the term "killing the messenger" really mean...I was so angry...Trully I didn't do anything to that JERK...come on..why should I spend my precious time on such a LOW LIFE....I know I can't put all what I say in my heart in here (u never know if there's children around..hehe..)..but...uhhh...do I wanna kill that mutha fucka...opppss...
But 1 thing that is good 'bout this was that all of my friends back me up....they knew that the CRAZY, MUTHA FUCKA, S.O.B was psycho..I mean he'll do anything just to piss people off...and more ever I have friends...and YOU, JERK don't!!!!..
~~~~~nuff said~~~~~~~~
Monday, May 02, 2005
tag...
I got a tag board...cause if I had to wait for Sarah to do it....hmmm....let me get my calculator first....ahaks...but I would like to thanks Sarah...coz she gave me the add to the tag board what...hahahhaa...
Sunday, May 01, 2005
~BBQ~....Kursk Style
WOOHOOOO!!!.....today was fun...woke up around 12..hey.it was Sunday ;p neway woke up and freshen up myself...coz we're gonna have a BBQ...whose "we"???the PPM...(Malay Student Assc.)...they had plan this gathering and all...so all I have to do is get there and eat...hehehhee....I know...not good ethics right???but I don't care...so long as I got a piece of those delicious chickens...hehehe...
The events started with the arrival of yours truly..(hahaha..angkat bakul sendiri)...then the introduction of the juniors..(yes...like they did in asrama...been there..done that..*YAWN*) then there were treasure hunting...I took it up cause I just wanna enjoy myself...my team compromise of : Kak Pipi, Zakri, Farhana (junior..not my roomate)...it was fun we were running around...Abg Ditto was cruel...he gave us the wrong clue...hehe..and we're stupid enough to beleive him...no matter...he didn't win anything tozhe...Fadzil's group should be disqualified...he's groups were: Malik, him and two more ppl I can't remember...hehe..they should be DQ cause Fadzil already knew half of the clue...i mean he helped Raziz picked out the check point..see..see...and he won third place..NOT FAIR!!! But then no matter...I still got to those chicken first...
What we had was fabolous...there were Macaroni, Spagheti, Potato Salad and the piece de'resistance =BBQ CHICKEN...hahaha...Just wanna say thanks to all the people that cooked for me..(hehehe..I'm getting lazier by the second)...Not to mention all the peoples that tended the chicken....all those smoke are worth it...GOOD JOB guys....
The events started with the arrival of yours truly..(hahaha..angkat bakul sendiri)...then the introduction of the juniors..(yes...like they did in asrama...been there..done that..*YAWN*) then there were treasure hunting...I took it up cause I just wanna enjoy myself...my team compromise of : Kak Pipi, Zakri, Farhana (junior..not my roomate)...it was fun we were running around...Abg Ditto was cruel...he gave us the wrong clue...hehe..and we're stupid enough to beleive him...no matter...he didn't win anything tozhe...Fadzil's group should be disqualified...he's groups were: Malik, him and two more ppl I can't remember...hehe..they should be DQ cause Fadzil already knew half of the clue...i mean he helped Raziz picked out the check point..see..see...and he won third place..NOT FAIR!!! But then no matter...I still got to those chicken first...
What we had was fabolous...there were Macaroni, Spagheti, Potato Salad and the piece de'resistance =BBQ CHICKEN...hahaha...Just wanna say thanks to all the people that cooked for me..(hehehe..I'm getting lazier by the second)...Not to mention all the peoples that tended the chicken....all those smoke are worth it...GOOD JOB guys....
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