Asmaradana....

A new year....new peoples....the same dance??? well it won't be the SAME dance actually....anyway here's how the story goes

Last week Ain asked me wether I would like to take part in the peformance for the Ambassador meeting...I asked what dance...she said it will be Asmaradana..the one we did last year for Depa-Raya...I said wellll, why not....but not all the original cast will be joining us....The first rehearsel was done in K.Dayah's room....those who will dance is me, Ain, Lyn, Shira, Bibi and Ain (Amir's lil sister)..anyway bothe the new comer was great and catch up the dance move very fast...as for me..there were some blunder as I got a bit (Alright...a LOT) rusty since there wern't much dancing or exercise..hehehehe..but it was really fun....

I think we rehearse for 4 hours....and then that night...I reformat my laptop...finally!!!....and now I'm trying to install codecs and utilities inside..the problem keep coming from WinMediaPlayer...it say's that there is a audio codec that is not install..will try and fix it later tonight...but I'm so dogone tired now....I woke too early for Sunday morning (well for my standard anyway since I slept at 6am) for practise session....Ain and Lyn was late..overslept...sigh...bestnye....and then we practise for almost 6 hours...I'm so tired and my body ache...I can't lift my bicep muscle(hahahaha...konon terror anat)....and then I had an urge to do a spring cleaning...so I vacumed the room and reorganize my things....but everything work out OK I guess...

brighter note

Got rid of my moodiness...finally....today was great....had a test for Physio...I think I got 4..if she just took the computer test result..if it include my written maybe a 3 or a 5....you can never know with that teacher of mine....and today Psycho lecture was "interesting"...the topic???personality...and we visited our good doctor Segmuind Freud....As ussual his theory on developing personality is quite intresting..and as ussual will always be conected somehow with the sexual feeling of the person.....Here is some of his point of view

a) he said that most people have the Oedius complex when growing up....this complex is characterise when a child have a strong feeling for their opposite gender parent...and think that their same sex parent is a rival.....

b) all of goes thru 5 stages of pleasure that dictate how our personality will developt...the 5 stages are (1) oral stages, (2) Anal stages, (3) Phallic stages, (4) Latent period and (5) Genital stages.....

You can see how today lecture had been very intresting...the guys who weren't mature enough keep up laughing over their own joke (which I wouldn't even want to know) and the teacher had to stop speaking for a few minutes...can you beleive that some of this guys are more than 20 years old....urgh!!!!see how immature guys are????

after finishing lecture went out to buy some grocery and to look at some DVDs....the new DVD place was empty..then went to Dombita...the DVD atore there also seem empty....Kak Hir got an idea saying that tha authorities had raided the place....HAH!! as if....anyway went to my ussual 'prokat' place to see if there's any good one..there are...The Brother Grimm and The Blood of the Templars....but both don't have english....the Blood of the Templars some more is in Germany...guess I just watch and try out my Russian...ahaks....

challenge

A friend told me that my life here in Kursk is challenging...but then I thought...is it only because that I'm in Kursk that all this thing happen to me???is it possible that these things won't happen if I weren't here....maybe some of the things won't happen if I was somewhere else...maybe I won't get to experience the dark side of some human beings...and maybe I won't feel al these feelings now....

the dark side of human beings had always facinated me.....I always wonder why do some ppl take their own life or risk hurting others when they now that they are going to be punish because of that action.....futhermore how can you leave your love ones behind so that you can escape what you think is an unlivable life....is that what suicider think when they took that action...were they really feel that they live was worthless...that they feel useless, unloved, unwanted.....just a dust that everyone steped on and didn't care....but won't people notice this dust if the wind blew it to your face....and wouldn't you notice it when you accidentally inhale it....sure it is notice with anoyance..but atleast people notice it....

and then there were people who couldnt live if the world is not focus on them....EXCUSE ME!!! but the world does not center around you.....plz stop being foolish and try to get your act together....people aren't meant to be by peoples side for a long time....when the time came you will just drift away....and then what do you do???

why do ppl tend to look at me like I'm some idiot...is it the way I projected myself....well so much for trying to see the positive things around me.....I have ran out of positive thinking..so just let me wallow on self-pitty and negative thought...JUST LET ME BE!!!!!

a white day....

Didn't went to class the whole day today...tought of going to Russian but since it's going to be a new theme and I'm going to 'razkaz' the theme next week...I thought why not.....guess why I didn't go to class...all because of "Kim Sam Soon"....it's a Korean drama series that Nina burned for me...It took a while for me and Farhana to look at it since it needs 2 codecs to run it....anyway last night we watched the 1st episode...it was hilarious....so I asked Farhana to put on the 2nd one....and I can't stop watching it...I wanna watch the whole series that night..I mean I was so worked up because of the story I want to get it over with ASAP.....It's a story of some foul-mouth oldie (is 30 years old really that old???) that just got dump n started working in a new restaurant who is ran by the son of a hotel tycoon (a female president [women power all the way]) this guy can be called as an ice prince ( he can do this great sneer that can make Draco Malfoy proud, which make me want to kiss him) and yeah his a total jerk...which make him hotter (Farhana said I'm psycho cause I like guys that are jerks and go nuts) but he has a great soft side that he is trying to hide from the whole world (which make him look of so vulnerable and of so cute)...I want to see the whole series but the damn laptop doesn't have the necessary codec....so I end up finishing Engine...a Japanese series that star Takuya Kimura about a race car drive that got to do with his Dad's orphanage.....at last I finished it and didn't went to class the whole day...hehehehehe

When I woke up it was to the sound of Farhana getting back from class...and asked me to watch Kim Sam Soon the 3rd episode....so went to wash up and watch it with her...it was so funny....then Kak Hir asked me to go out to buy some groceries for tonight dinner (Nasi Lemak Ayam will be the menu) I asked her about the weather outside she said it was snowing I tought she was joking...when I looked outside it was white everywhere...hah...the first heavy downfall of snow this year...I've been waiting it to snow for awhile now.....I didn't tought it was snowing heavily....hah!!!serve me right....didn't were ant hood so my face was covered with snow.....

Conspiracy my ass!!!!

OK...here's the thing I don't understand when any tragedy happen...there's always someone wh can think of a great conspiracy story that just wouldn't add up......

So here's the thing....I heard from somebody (doesn't it always start like this) that there was an anoymous letter that was faxed to do uni's admin saying that Vicky's room was always loud n disturbing ppl..bla..bla..bla....and that they (the people who i writing this letter) were afraid that someone might burn Vicky's room.....and then there was the story that the fire was so big it couldn't just started from a small ciggie or short-circuit....It look like some one had douse the whole room with Carosine or something.......

Stupid isn't it....I mean it is so far fetched...do you honestly think that anyone want to burn a room down just becaue they make a lot of noises????come on people atleast make up a good one.......

a blazing tragedy

The third day of raya went out with a Bang...literally....my hostel was on fire..to top it of..it was near my friend's room where I ussually hang out....It was scary since I was just there a few hours back.....the fire started around 10-11 pm...Thank God I was in my room n Farhana (my roomate) went back to tell me about the fire.....the whole hostel was evacuated...when I get out (I only had the time to grab a jumper n wear my slipper) we went to the side of the hostel and see that the fire was blazing out of the room....I was so scared at the time....didn't even feel the chill at that time....not to mention that there were pieces of something bursting and landed on the ground....the firefighter took their own sweet tome to do everything.....after a while my feet cann't feel anything since it was preety cold outside (nearing 3 I think) we were the herded to the front of the hostel...then to the Latin building before we were able to get back inside.....my room was dark since they cut the circuit around the unit.....we are still wondering what started the fire....

Today when I had a looked at Tasha's room it was horrible...all the paneling which was done by plastic is melted...their room is blacken (not a surprise since we can see smoke coming out of their window during the fire)...but nothing was burn badly in their room...just the smjoke n Jelaga.....but their bathroom was totaly in ruin.....Ecstasy (their cat) died in the fire..I think it was the only casualty.....I sometime imagine what will happen if I was the one there that night...the plan was that Tasha n Sarah will leave the room n I will room-sit the room...that would mean that I will be all alone that night when the fire happen.....I just Thank ALLAH that they were there and everything was OK......Tasha n Sarah was temporary moved to 1st hostel....we're doing everything we can di to help them.....

Ok you listen to what happen right...now it's the time for me to voice out something that disturb me.....the hostel admin just install new smoke detector.....none of us..I repeat NONE of the student heard the bloody thing blast off...not even a beep came out from the blasted thing....what the hell was that thing there for then if not to warn us...people inside the building that the were fire in the building...then another thing is the fire extuingisher (sp??)...some of my friends who were one of the first on the scene tried to put out the fire but the damn thing just puff out 2 time n koing already...what the hell...isn't the fire department suppose to checked the damned thing every year......and another thing is there's no damn(sorry bout the curses but I'm just so angry..and this is better than other 4 letter curse words) emergency light in the stair..I mean we climb up to our room in darkness....there should be emergency light so it can guide us when for instance there's no light durinng the emergency...stupid russian....ani ochen gluupi..

Happy Eidul-Fitr

Selamat Hari Raya everyone....sorry for the late wishes..only haed this time to get my hand on a conected computer.....so I celebrate Raya in Padfak this year...beranngan kononnye bgalik kampung la....so arrive kat padfak at around 5pm...Ain n Lyn already had dinner waiting for me...Thanks guys....All of us were suppose to cook up something for the FEAST the next mornning...so I join Dila, Ain n Lyn to do the SOTO...hahahaha...can you beleive it.....SOTO in Kusrk.....

Anyway I did the BEGEDEL (little meatball to go with the dishes).....and Ain was 'carik'ing the ayam for the soto....and then we cooked the BEGEDEL...with some casualties to the BRGEDEL population while we were cooking them.....we also had help from the new student....Ain, Bibi, kak Nazirah, Syarifah and others...thanks guys.....It was so tiring....Me n Dila did the soup for the Soto...we finish around 3 am....sigh...I'm half way dead.....n then woke up at 6 coz somebody knock on the door....didn't even hear the 5 am alarm.....so called my parents in MALAYSIA....miss them so much...had a great talk with my uncles n aunts on my father side.....well acctualy my parents called me since I couldn't get a hold on them....Woke up the next morning at 9 (URGH!!!!hate waking up when you hadnn't had a good sleep).....

The morning call came from Zaid, who asked us to go to Raya prayer...but since I couldn't I wanted to sleep some more...but the other girls were busy in the kitchen n I had to go n wash b4 everyone flooded the toilet....so I had a shower first....iron my clothes.....n help the girls....Tinie was reheating the curry she cooked last night for the Mee Curry...the SOON for the SOTO was being cooked...n last minute food prep are on the way...we had the padfak to ourselves since all the boys went to the Raya prayer.....around 9am I called my parents again to speak to my mother side of the family....as ussual both of my family boast on how good their foods are for the raya...what kind of food...and all that stuff....hahahahaha...the joke is acctualy on them as we also have great foods...we had Rendang, Ketupat, Kuih Raya (London Almond, Bahulu, Popiah gulunng, Pagoda, n kerepek Ubi), Soto, mee Curry, Ayam Percik, Ayam Masak Merah.....see...we then gather around and stuffed ourselves silly......It was a great day...